About Me

Personal Background

I am married to a designer cum system engineer in 2008. A mother of two amazing sons. 

My eldest, Haizan, is challenged by Autism. Haizan was diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD) when he’s 3 years 9 months in August 2013. I am active with my Facebook Group: Autisme Malaysia. I am fully contented with the little help, support and deep understanding that I offer to other parents who are blessed with this kind of child in their home and those who are interested in Special Needs Education. 

My youngest, Haikal, a true companion to his brother although their differences are like day vs. night. He also provides much social support when his brother starts to play on his own and drifted far from the circle of friends.

Career Background

I am currently pursuing my postgraduate studies, M.Ed. in Instructional Technology and previously, I had an honoured degree in B.Ed.TESL. I am lecturing at college in subjects: General/Academic English and Business English.

How Autism has taught or changed me?

Autism generally has awaken my senses, perception, hunger of knowledge, empathy and the feel to uphold the legal rights of those with special needs. The moment I had a hunch that Haizan to have it (ASD) in him, I was totally shame of myself. I was shame for not being able to look at him (a little) closer instead becoming a terrifying monster when he was being quirky and showing an out-of-control tantrum (due to his inability to communicate his needs and wants). Being clueless, not noticing and ignorant are such a terrible mishap. I would like to venture into Special Needs Education at one point of my life later to understand the disorder and how best I could maximize the unlimited potentials in my son with his different abilities as well as in helping others.

I am mostly touched by a quote from Stuart Duncan, a father (as well as a blogger) who has an autistic son:

“ Hugs may come less frequently from someone with autism but when they do, you know it means everything. ”

I do receive a lot of hugs from my Autistic son when he is excited or when he has a bad day. I want him to know that he is important and cherished in the family. Although when I am no longer around, I want him to remember me for a good reason. Be it the only reason. That I am his mother who loves him unconditionally. 

This is for my Haizan. 

And for Haikal, thank you for being your brother's sturdy 'punching bag'. Despite of feeling hurt (ouch!) you never failed to give your best laughter and smile. I know I can count on you baby!